ONCE AGAIN I AM WRITING HERE BECAUSE NO ONE COMES HERE. I AM SO DEPRESSED TODAY. I AM TIRED OF FIGHTING THIS DEMON OF DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY. I HAVE FOUGHT IT FOR YEARS. I AM TIRED SO VERY TIRED. PART OF ME WANTS TO JUST SAY THE HELL WITH IT AND END IT ALL RIGHT NOW AND TO BE HONEST THAT WAS MY INTENTION WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNING. TIRED OF BEING ALONE ALL THE TIME SITTING ON THE INTERNET JUST WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO TALK TO. HOPING SOMEONE WILL TAKE TIME TO CHAT. AND TO BE HONEST A COUPLE OF PEOPLE HAVE BUT I DONT WANT TO BE A BURDEN TO THEM ALL THE TIME EITHER. SO TODAY CHIP AND I SIT HERE. THE MORE I SIT HERE THE HARDER IT IS TO NOT GIVE INTO MY TEMPTATION TO JUST END IT ALL. I AM SUPPOSE TO GO TO A BIRTHDAY DINNER TODAY AND I WILL GO BUT TO BE HONEST I DREAD IT BECAUSE OF PANIC ISSUES. WHO KNOWS AFTER THAT IF I WILL EVEN COME BACK MAYBE I WILL JUST GO DO MYSELF IN. I AM SO TIRED OF THIS LIFE. TIRED OF WAKING UP AND AS HARD AS I TRY THE BANK IS OVERDRAWN. I HAVE NO GAS NO FOOD AND NO MONEY. BUT YET PEOPLE TELL ME TO SMILE GOD LOVES YOU. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE IF HE DOES OR NOT. I HAVE ALL BUT LOST MY FAITH. IT IS SAD WHEN YOU SPEND MOST OF YOUR MORNING SO FAR LOOKING UP WEBSITES ON HOW TO COMMIT SUICIDE. WELL, I BETTER SHUT UP. NO ONE READ THIS ANYWAY BUT JUST HAD TO VENT.
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Mary, I come here. And I pray for you, too. So you have at least one person who loves you.
i KNOW YOU DO. I AM JUST SO TIRED OF THIS CONSTANT BATTLE WITH DEPRESSION, AND PANIC, THING AFTER THING GOING ON, IIM IN A BAD WAY RIGHT NOW. A REALLY BAD WAY MENTALLY.
Think about what is good; about those who love you; think about Chip and how much he adores you.
Have you thought about going to talk to Dave again? Perhaps you should.
I didn’t get your emial. Try it at randall.slack@gmail.com
I RESENT IT LET ME KNOW IF YOU GOT IT.