The other day while working for my friend the photographer. A lady called wanted to make an appointment for a photo shoot. I could hear in her voice that she was very upset.  She said she had called other photographers and they would not help her. she explained that they were just told that her mother did not have long to live she was told she has terimal lung cancer and so they wanted to get what would be the last family portrait only the mom can not leave the  house.  By this time she was crying… well we were able to help her we will be photograghing her this saturday… but what really ment a lot ot me was I know I care about my friends and have compassion on them, but  I think for the first time in my life I had compassion for a total stranger.  My heart just went out to her, I talked with her til she was calm. I realized this is not just a job to me but a way of reaching out and really touching peoples lives. People dont understand how important family photos are til times like these.  Val the photographer is going to take extra time with her so they get all the pictures they want.. these will be valuable.  I just pray I have the chance again to show compassion to a total stranger.

I have been going through a rough time with depression lately, so I withdraw and I know that I know that is the wrong thing to do and yet I did it anyway.  Yesterday I had one of the worse panic attacks I have ever had.  Did I call anyone no. even though I know there are a lot of people who care.

Today I am working both jobs , taking on this second job has been good for me it keeps me busy…..

So tell me how are all of you doing, anything exciting going on in your lives,.

Here is a question for you.. It may not sound serious but it is.  I want to see what you come up with before I tell you what I mean by this

what does it mean to be the donkey?

I have been sitting here thinking the last few days. We need people. Yes we need God but we also need people who speak truth into our lives.  Things have changed for me recently.  I have been around people more lately and I notice a big change in my life. And now that I have been down sick I really see how much these people mean to me.  Not seeing them is leaving a big void in my life.  No ones  fault Im sick cant go around people. People would tell me you have Jesus he is all you need. Yes a thousand times yes we need Jesus. But we also need people that is why he said not to forsake the fellowship.  I even had someone not to long ago tell me that they felt very protective of me.  They will never know how much that means to me.  As most of you know I come from a past of abuse. my own dad never protected me.

Outside of being sick things are going pretty good right now.  The cancer is almost gone Praise the Lord.  I have met up with an old friend who has given me a chance to make extra money … Piano is going ok looking to get a few more students.

Hoping to make it to church tomorrow….

Halloween Pranks

Mine is David.  For so many reasons David was as human as they come he blew it so much, he killed. commited adultry.  but yet he was called a Man after Gods own heart.

Been down sick, but doing better.  Please pray for my niece Michelle though she is really sick.

I started a new Job working with a photographer, God is blessing the effort. Even at that I find myself fighting depression, some have told me that means I am not grateful for what God is doing in my life.  Im here to tell you that is not true.  I am grateful that God is blessing so that I can pay my bills get caught up on some bills it has been awful the last 6 months or so. People have helped me out and for that I am eternally gateful.  Water was turned off a group of people helped. computer crashed unfixable. or would cost more to fix than to get new one.  someone gave me one that is working like no other computer I have had. it is so fast and runs great. so see I am grateful and know that there are people out there that care about me I know that.  I am not saying poor me no one cares that is not true there are people who care. it is just that depression is a mean monster and hits at times when you think it would not because things are going pretty good.  but today as much as I am grateful for all that has happen in my life lately, I also find myself depressed.

well anyway. that is my update for today…..

Here is one explanation

Gods Riches At Christ Expense.

Unmerited Favor , but what does that really mean

God Mercies are new every morning

Things are changing in my life right now and I am so grateful

for the positive changes  Had scan early this am and

things are looking really good.

New job along with my piano that is bringing in

extra income. and by the way anyone wants extra

income let me know.

I have met some wonderful people lately. and

I am so grateful for that.  These people have impacted

my life in such a way.  People who barely know me

are checking on me. Calling me emailing me just to say hi

I am excited to see what all is ahead in this new area

of my life I know God has a plan for me